Saturday, January 06, 2007
recently had been really down..pressure is crashing on me as the due date for my final year project is near, which is like next Friday..man, still not totally complete and plus report and presentation slides...Worst of all next week is the start of IVP basketball, that means I'll be much busy than normal!!timing had really been a big problem for me..early morning go to school meet up with my group mates and do the project, then in the late noon had to go for my school training!! After school training got to rush back to meet my group members and continue doing the project!! hell man!! reach home also continue my project!! next morning wake up again go back school..my daily routine is like this for dunnoe how many weeks!!kinda really tired and not enough sleep..this is greatly affecting me!!
just like today, i slept for bout 2 hours then went to school at 8am to do project..do until 3pm, go home took my stuff and head down to republic poly for a friendly game!! hell man, i was dead tired!!all i can say for the game is i played badly and i suck to the core..guess i wont be playing the game i want anymore!!i missed pass, i gave away ball easily and i did not initiate attacks!! i was disappointed in myself and so does everyone!! this prove that mental energy is really important for sports!! and thats something i dun have today~
on my way home was thinking can i really continue playing IVP with my current project status?? i really feel like backing off the team but somehow if i just leave like that, its shows that I'm a irresponsible person..but to those who are strong in the team will like its fine for me to be out i guess..i really dunnoe what to do!!
I'm left with less than 24 hours to decide whether i should or should not continue for this team!!
12:13 AM