So sian..ever since after my O levels, i felt that holadays are really waste of time..everytime wanna find work but in the end never!!haha...dunnoe have the thought but dun have the will to find!!recently feelin gettin down and down!!just dont know wat i am looking forward too...real sian..if not for the two groups of friends who have been around me, think i might just end up somewhere else...maybe i might just become a boy who got self-depression..den always stayed at home..haha!!kinda like no words been able to come out of my mouth recently...had been quiet everytime i'm around with my friends..dunnoe why i had become the way i am rite now!!maybe the lesser i talk, the lesser i will scold vulgar words baHz!!haha..actually listening to my friends talk also quiet interesting...at least you noes wat happening with them and can reflect their problems with mine..haha!!My dear friends out there..if i ever go out with ya again and i kept quiet, is not that i am sad, moody or sian..is that i like to listen more nowadays than to speak..plus the lesser i speak the numbers of vulgar coming out of my mouth will be lesser..hha!!been 2 weeks gone le!!still haven get a job yet!!for now..i am willing to give up bball for job man..i really need money!!i dun wan anymore bball..i dun even noe i still wanna play for SP not!!i just sick of it..i need a rest!!I am really a loser in this game!!